had a great block leave i suppose
all the catch ups and chit chats
dinner, supper, chilling sessions
thanks for all those who spent time
really appreciated it
made me feel so civilian again
and for those who i din get to see
hope it will be in the near future
really near future
gonna snap back to reality
tml need to go back already
all the trainings and shit will come
but nvm i'll go thu it
my beautiful girl
thanks for the lunch today
hope to see u wen i book out again
take care and i'll b missing you
alot alot
to all my friends continue to be happy
have fun, enjoy life, do wat you like
don't have regrets
Sispec here i come! Silver bayonet!
Don't you agree tat money, brains, looks and talent rule this whole we're living in?? if u dun have either one of the above, you're quite screwed up.. hmmmm.. apparently, i doubt i have any of the above! my world juz kinda 'rock' rite?

this world is so unfair, hmmmm.. no matter how i look at it.. ppl always say think on the brighter side of things.. look liao look liao.. but still, this world, screwed up.. unfair, unfair.. ppl lead different lives.. some are well off, some not so well off, some damn screwed up.. although i noe how to say i'm satisfied with wat i have, but.. how can human beings be satisfied?? we wan more and more..

black pepper steak at hougang plaza there is damn freaking good, will go there for another one soon! awesome awesome! seriously shiok!

Boys, guys, men LOVE trouble.. dun u agree?? since young we have created non-stopping trouble.. and we looked everywhere for trouble.. somehow we found the most troublesome in this world.. girls, gals, women.. haha.. although troublesome, we still do love them yea?

It never will, and never will be.. if have means have la.. dun have means dun have lohz.. dun need to force de.. coz if its gonna be urs, of coz u need to fight for it, it will be urs.. but if not gonna be urs, no matter how u fight, wun be urs..

Troublesome sometimes to ask ppl out at times, reasons.. hmmmm.. quite sick of it.. maybe because its me.. guess so.. not entertaining, not funny, not rich, not good looking and stuff.. the list might go on and on.. loner? guess so.. but it became a simple pleasure of my life, heading out alone, walk anywhere i wan, go anywhere i wanna go.. although a little boring, coz nobody to talk to.. but simply enjoyed it.. visit many places alone though.. interesting places, tat i will not go with normal friends.. maybe a quiet time for me, think of stuff..

i wanna go to the beach one day, sit there, look at things around me, hopefully there will be someone sitting beside me, but not much talking.. but enjoying the presence of one another, listening to the sound of the waves, the breeze on our faces, looking at the surroundings, enjoying nature..

Had a glass of red wine, some milk chocolate and wall's ice cream in a night, rather satisfying to my tastebuds.. good combination, dun u agree?

If i can go away, i guess i'll get a camera, pack my bags and just go without anyone knowing, probably a few people will know.. go for a good few years.. go to a place where i dunno anyone.. most probably can go to the places stated where i want to travel to.. fulfill my dream too.. lead a carefree, travelling life, dun need to worry how people are doing.. sick of it already.. being too concerned with other's lives, and screwed up my own.. juz wanna lead a simply travelling life.. go around the whole freaking world.. snaps snaps snaps.. take pictures of beautiful places, beautiful people, beautiful moments tat i'll see..

The most expensive thing on earth would be a dream.. dunno how to put this, but if ur dream is something almost unreachable, it will probably take a few lifetimes to reach ur dream.. but if ur dream is something simple, u might be able to reach it in this lifetime.. hmmmm.. do i have a dream?? nope.. dreamless.. dunno where i should go for now.. maybe i'll work to the goals i've set, according to my 'wants' list.. maybe.. too materialistic.. but better than being lost in life, no goals, no dreams? guess so..

Sometimes i feel like i'm feeling my way around in the dark.. lights will always be off in my room, i'll juz feel for things around.. not because i'm doing 'some' stuff.. but i like the feeling of listening to music, online, or watch movies and dramas in a dark, cosy room.. yups.. good feeling.. atmosphere u noe?? hmmmm..

Have you ever laugh till you cry, or cry till you laugh?? hmmm.. had both.. laughed at jokes till too hard, damn freaking funny, teared.. but had times tat was too happy, and cried, tears of joy they called it.. cry till i laughed, ppl made me happy when i was crying.. made me laugh, and i am grateful to these ppl.. but had times tat was too sad, cried.. laughed bitterly with crying because i was laughing at myself due to my stupidity.. sometimes its due to regret.. there are too many times tat the two above situations happen to me..

my heart has always ached ever since, seems like nothing can stop the pain.. hope it can juz, go away.. hmmmm.. occasional heartaches, hope it does not affect me too much, if not i might juz take off anytime. Sometimes also think of the past, ok la.. not say cannot let go, but somehow still feel painful.. wat to do..

Hope one day, someday, one fine day, i could hear her heartbeat.. guess the feelings for her had developed.. but somehow still hesitant?? hmmmm.. dunno why.. maybe its because of our different commitments? reason, reasons, reasoned.. somehow i dun feel like its two-way, although being verified.. i believe in the talk, but i dun believe in the action.. hmmmm.. 'just go for her' friend's advice.. hmmmm.. for me, guess it would be harder.. really put too much thought into it?? i'm thinking too much i guess, but i have too think.. its not just 'another' one.. hope i won't think too long until she goes off with another person.. i will definitely regret losing her if tat happens.. but i still have to set things right before going for her ba.. hmmm..

wah.. sometimes hor.. cannot take it sia.. seriously.. already lehz.. wah.. too power already.. cannot take it lehz.. tsk.. tsk.. tsk..

Short films had tis close to the heart feeling, touching scenes, heartfelt.. something we can relate to at times.. coz the same incident maybe happen to us or smth.. sometimes can teach us some lessons in life.. some inspirational, motivates us.. juz freaking awesome! awesome shit!

hmmm.. in life, i think we tried too hard, trying too hard to achieve things, that we know that cannot be achieved.. maybe ppl will say.. juz try, i oso told myself tat everytime.. juz since u know tat u wun get it, why bother wasting time, energy, money to try?? toopid me.. seriously.. dun bother, dun give a shit, dun try.. let things go the way it should be.. now if i'm confident that i will achieve smth, i'll then try.. if not.. f*** it man..

actually wen the sky is going to fall on me, i'll open my arms to invite it.. i will not dodge it or run away.. of coz la, dun purposely create problems for myself, i'm not too bored.. but if problems or issues is really going to come, juz whack only.. whack a one time good one.. everything juz throw at me.. i wanna see how much i can really take.. curious.. i'm not psycho.. juz wanna noe where my limits are.. if something is not going to kill me, it will make me stronger.. yups.. i believe in that..

Hope one day if i have a wife, everynight before we sleep, we will always sit together at the couch, i'll take her in my arms, i'll most probably watch tv, or read the newspaper.. and she will be reading her book.. both of us juz doing our favourite things after a day of hard work, on the same couch.. juz having our own time, but enjoying the presence of the other.. that would be sweet.. yups.. slowly think first ba.. still long..

HIT IT!! JUZ KEEP THE MUSIC GOING NON STOP!!

Labels: just bear with it la, kinda pessimistic

Everyone started off at 4plus am in the morning..
still feeling sleepy,
still tired..
We started our long long journey of 24km..
4km by 4km we slowly cover..
For every one of them,
our legs grew more tired,
backs were aching,
abrasions everywhere..
the sun was out by 8am,
shining brightly on us..
beads of perspiration roll down our cheeks..
our field packs and rifles,
seems to get heavier for every step we take..
everyone was too tired to eat our lunch,
by we somehow swallowed it up..
There wasn't any chance,
to fall out,
to give up,
i told myself..
13 weeks of training,
all the shit I've gone through,
comes down to this day..
no matter what,
must finish this journey..
we motivate one another,
not to give up,
not to give in,
to think of the parade,
the throwing of our jockey caps,
our own graduation parade..
In my heart,
there was only my home,
mum and dad,
baby,
i kept thinking about..
it kept me going
and going..
Up and down rocky slopes,
mud,
big puddles of muddy water..
We finally saw the parade ground in front,
our hearts were filled with joy,
indescribable happiness..
We hugged our buddies,
tears of joy ran down my cheek..
Was too happy..
Finally finished,
the feeling was so indescribable..
As we marched into the parade smartly,
everyone tried to look their best..
showing how much we have been through,
to be able to stand in this parade ground..
We had to put on a good show to the audience,
because sitted there was every single one of our
loved ones,
parents,
family,
girlfriends,
friends..
The infantry song,
which we undergo a tough lesson to learn it well..
we sang it loud and clear,
sang it with pride..
it is now our responsibility to protect this nation,
keep our people free..
there will be be an obstacle too hard for us..
when this country needs us,
we will always be there to protect it,
protect our loved ones,
protect our families..
we are the 1st, the one and only infantry!
We marched past the grand stand and the galleries smartly,
know that our loved ones are sitting there,
cheering for us..
it is them,
that we will give our lives for..
As we re-enter the parade ground,
our jockey caps are being put on by our loved ones,
it was an significant moment for us,
a moment to cherish all our lives..
We have finally become men from boys..
A stage of life,
that all singapore boys have to go through,
to become men,
fighting men,
to protect this land..
As we toss our caps high up into the sky,
the crowd was cheering,
lots of happy faces was seen,
we hugged our fellow men,
our borthers,
we have finally graduated..
the emotions in us were stirred up,
the feeling was so shiok!
We thanked our commanders,
for all the teachings,
trainings,
scoldings,
for the past 13 weeks..
if not for them,
there will never be us..
Our family and loved ones,
if they were not there to support us,
we might not be able to tahan till this day..
Training to be soldiers,
fight for our land,
once in our lives,
two years of our time,
have you ever wondered,
why must we serve,
because we love our land,
and we want it to be free, to be free, ya!
Looking all around us,
people everywhere,
children having fun,
while we are holding guns,
have you every wondered,
why must we serve,
because we love our land,
and we want it to be free, to be free, ya!
Stand up,
be on your guard,
come on every soldier,
do your part,
do it our nation,
do it for our singapore, ya!
Quite an emo week for me..
too many stuff happened??
got pissed off so easily..
Last book out before POP!
going to POP on tuesday!
shopping and walking spree..
zoo-ing around the whole time..
the thing about bookshops..
clubs..
boutiqueshops..
Cafes..
musicstores..
bars..
restaurants and streetshops..
interesting interesting..
Different styles..
different patterns..
a few songs got stuck in my head..
1's a company, 2's a crowd, 3's a party..
Jager-Bombs, Lemon Drops, Jello Shots, Kamakazis, Three Wise Men..
I'm tryna find the words to describe this girl without being disrespectful..
So baby don't worry you were my only, You won't be lonely..
i make them good girls go bad..
I gotta feeling that tonight's gonna be a good night..