Don't you agree tat money, brains, looks and talent rule this whole we're living in?? if u dun have either one of the above, you're quite screwed up.. hmmmm.. apparently, i doubt i have any of the above! my world juz kinda 'rock' rite?

this world is so unfair, hmmmm.. no matter how i look at it.. ppl always say think on the brighter side of things.. look liao look liao.. but still, this world, screwed up.. unfair, unfair.. ppl lead different lives.. some are well off, some not so well off, some damn screwed up.. although i noe how to say i'm satisfied with wat i have, but.. how can human beings be satisfied?? we wan more and more..

black pepper steak at hougang plaza there is damn freaking good, will go there for another one soon! awesome awesome! seriously shiok!

Boys, guys, men LOVE trouble.. dun u agree?? since young we have created non-stopping trouble.. and we looked everywhere for trouble.. somehow we found the most troublesome in this world.. girls, gals, women.. haha.. although troublesome, we still do love them yea?

It never will, and never will be.. if have means have la.. dun have means dun have lohz.. dun need to force de.. coz if its gonna be urs, of coz u need to fight for it, it will be urs.. but if not gonna be urs, no matter how u fight, wun be urs..

Troublesome sometimes to ask ppl out at times, reasons.. hmmmm.. quite sick of it.. maybe because its me.. guess so.. not entertaining, not funny, not rich, not good looking and stuff.. the list might go on and on.. loner? guess so.. but it became a simple pleasure of my life, heading out alone, walk anywhere i wan, go anywhere i wanna go.. although a little boring, coz nobody to talk to.. but simply enjoyed it.. visit many places alone though.. interesting places, tat i will not go with normal friends.. maybe a quiet time for me, think of stuff..

i wanna go to the beach one day, sit there, look at things around me, hopefully there will be someone sitting beside me, but not much talking.. but enjoying the presence of one another, listening to the sound of the waves, the breeze on our faces, looking at the surroundings, enjoying nature..

Had a glass of red wine, some milk chocolate and wall's ice cream in a night, rather satisfying to my tastebuds.. good combination, dun u agree?

If i can go away, i guess i'll get a camera, pack my bags and just go without anyone knowing, probably a few people will know.. go for a good few years.. go to a place where i dunno anyone.. most probably can go to the places stated where i want to travel to.. fulfill my dream too.. lead a carefree, travelling life, dun need to worry how people are doing.. sick of it already.. being too concerned with other's lives, and screwed up my own.. juz wanna lead a simply travelling life.. go around the whole freaking world.. snaps snaps snaps.. take pictures of beautiful places, beautiful people, beautiful moments tat i'll see..

The most expensive thing on earth would be a dream.. dunno how to put this, but if ur dream is something almost unreachable, it will probably take a few lifetimes to reach ur dream.. but if ur dream is something simple, u might be able to reach it in this lifetime.. hmmmm.. do i have a dream?? nope.. dreamless.. dunno where i should go for now.. maybe i'll work to the goals i've set, according to my 'wants' list.. maybe.. too materialistic.. but better than being lost in life, no goals, no dreams? guess so..

Sometimes i feel like i'm feeling my way around in the dark.. lights will always be off in my room, i'll juz feel for things around.. not because i'm doing 'some' stuff.. but i like the feeling of listening to music, online, or watch movies and dramas in a dark, cosy room.. yups.. good feeling.. atmosphere u noe?? hmmmm..

Have you ever laugh till you cry, or cry till you laugh?? hmmm.. had both.. laughed at jokes till too hard, damn freaking funny, teared.. but had times tat was too happy, and cried, tears of joy they called it.. cry till i laughed, ppl made me happy when i was crying.. made me laugh, and i am grateful to these ppl.. but had times tat was too sad, cried.. laughed bitterly with crying because i was laughing at myself due to my stupidity.. sometimes its due to regret.. there are too many times tat the two above situations happen to me..

my heart has always ached ever since, seems like nothing can stop the pain.. hope it can juz, go away.. hmmmm.. occasional heartaches, hope it does not affect me too much, if not i might juz take off anytime. Sometimes also think of the past, ok la.. not say cannot let go, but somehow still feel painful.. wat to do..

Hope one day, someday, one fine day, i could hear her heartbeat.. guess the feelings for her had developed.. but somehow still hesitant?? hmmmm.. dunno why.. maybe its because of our different commitments? reason, reasons, reasoned.. somehow i dun feel like its two-way, although being verified.. i believe in the talk, but i dun believe in the action.. hmmmm.. 'just go for her' friend's advice.. hmmmm.. for me, guess it would be harder.. really put too much thought into it?? i'm thinking too much i guess, but i have too think.. its not just 'another' one.. hope i won't think too long until she goes off with another person.. i will definitely regret losing her if tat happens.. but i still have to set things right before going for her ba.. hmmm..

wah.. sometimes hor.. cannot take it sia.. seriously.. already lehz.. wah.. too power already.. cannot take it lehz.. tsk.. tsk.. tsk..

Short films had tis close to the heart feeling, touching scenes, heartfelt.. something we can relate to at times.. coz the same incident maybe happen to us or smth.. sometimes can teach us some lessons in life.. some inspirational, motivates us.. juz freaking awesome! awesome shit!

hmmm.. in life, i think we tried too hard, trying too hard to achieve things, that we know that cannot be achieved.. maybe ppl will say.. juz try, i oso told myself tat everytime.. juz since u know tat u wun get it, why bother wasting time, energy, money to try?? toopid me.. seriously.. dun bother, dun give a shit, dun try.. let things go the way it should be.. now if i'm confident that i will achieve smth, i'll then try.. if not.. f*** it man..

actually wen the sky is going to fall on me, i'll open my arms to invite it.. i will not dodge it or run away.. of coz la, dun purposely create problems for myself, i'm not too bored.. but if problems or issues is really going to come, juz whack only.. whack a one time good one.. everything juz throw at me.. i wanna see how much i can really take.. curious.. i'm not psycho.. juz wanna noe where my limits are.. if something is not going to kill me, it will make me stronger.. yups.. i believe in that..

Hope one day if i have a wife, everynight before we sleep, we will always sit together at the couch, i'll take her in my arms, i'll most probably watch tv, or read the newspaper.. and she will be reading her book.. both of us juz doing our favourite things after a day of hard work, on the same couch.. juz having our own time, but enjoying the presence of the other.. that would be sweet.. yups.. slowly think first ba.. still long..

HIT IT!! JUZ KEEP THE MUSIC GOING NON STOP!!

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